May the words of my mouth and the meditation of my heart be pleasing to you, O Lord, my rock and my redeemer. Psalm 20.14The words of my mouth: As a woman, I have so many words in my mouth. Personally, I have a ton of opinions - very strong, black and white, overpowering opinions. I also have a ton of emotions all of the time. My mouth, needless to say, is not always a pleasing tool. However, I desperately want it to be. I want to be encouraging, just, and I bet that if I give my mouth to God, he can use it for more that I've imagined. Perhaps, just perhaps, I can be even more than nice. Maybe he can use me to speak into someone's life. Maybe he can use me to give praise to him in a desperate situation. Maybe he can use me to give hope to someone who hasn't met him yet. That would be wonderful. I just need to give him my mouth.
The meditations of my heart: Am I the only one who thinks that if I think something, even if it is bad, or negative, or competitive, or impure, that because it is in my head, it's alright? I mean, nobody sees my thoughts. They don't really come out into the way that I live. Right? Well, that's not true, and I know it. I try to convince myself that, but this verse reveals my issue. My heart and my thoughts, just like my words, need to please God for me to be on the same plane as he is. My heart is where I harbor bitterness and frustration and pain, and if I keep those things close to me, I am not free and God can not take them and work in those areas of my life. If he can't work in my life, then I am not as effective for him, and I might not be able to find the peace and joy and love for others that he has available for me!
Have a wonderful Good Friday!