If you know me, you know that I'm terrified of this. If you read my blog mini-series, Sueño, you can see some of my recent processes through my complete fear and insecurity. God has been teaching me about faith and about who he says I am and the gifts that he's given me. God's security = incredibly increased confidence. It's a different type of confidence than my own. My own is critical and unstable, but his is assuring and humbling.
I have to say, it's amazing when we give something to God. I was tired of asking him how I was ever going to write. I was exhausted praying over my dreams. I wanted to do something, and I needed God to show up or I was going to put my dream in a shoebox on a shelf and hope someday it fell down again.
Long story short, God has been showing up in amazing ways. First, he has given me a heart for a certain subject, and I'm attempting to research (Biblically) and experiment with writing about it. I'd like to make it into a book someday, but we'll keep that our secret, because something that big still terrifies me. However, God somehow just introduced into my life small online Christian girl's magazine called Lily Girls (if you know any teens, tell them to read the articles - the other girls are amazing, and it's free to read). I wasn't researching, and I wasn't trying anything. God knew what he was doing, and knew when I would be ready. So, as of this month, I have started writing for them! My first article was published today! If you want to read it, you can see it here: Perfectly Imperfect.
P.S.I have to send everyone of you a humongous Thank You. When I have felt as if I'd gone out on a limb by writing something, you encouraged me. This small feat might seem like nothing to you, but it is so much to me. And so are my bloggy friends that have been God's tools to fuel me into action.
You are amazing, and I love you!